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Here we go again



Hi. Here am I again, popping out at random hours. lol.

 My heart is still aching. I'm tired going through my emotional roller-coaster. My meds doesn't seem to be working on me anymore. I bet your ass I'm going to be on new combination of meds. See what I mean the trial and error part when it comes to medication? It's tiring. I feel like I can crash anytime sooner. My body can't take it anymore. I wanted to breakdown so bad but I've been numb. I can't feel anything. I know I'm sad but I can't express it, yet. 

I am always there for people and knew too well how to handle them but me. ME. 

I miss being normal. My definition of normal is: not to have this constant nasty thoughts inside my head and sleep when I should sleep. I still can laugh my ass off and make stupid jokes. don't get me wrong. It's just that, when I'm done and being all by myself again, here we go again. It comes back in. Sounds exhausting? trust me it is. You'd still question every single piece of me, how tf can I handle it. That's why you need to learn more on this certain health issue and have more EMPATHY. It's not easy for me. I'm still frustrated with the comments that I got from some shit heads people. Hence, I became who I am today. I roasted them on the spot. Am I sorry? Not at all. I speak for me and the other sufferers. Don't feel entitled just because you have a normal, healthy functioning brain. Still don't believe me? See this MRI below.

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 kbye world. I'm going to preach by re-posting some things in other post after this.

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